Curiosity

Sometimes I look at you and wonder.

I see you walking by or I'll come over and say hello. I stare politely as you speak, noting the way you react when or don't react to your own words or my responses.

My eyes roam your face; endless amounts of smooth, soft skin, to your long hair that shines bright and vibrantly against your skin.

Your voice soon starts to fade as I think about running a finger down your cheek, and further down your neck, through your hair— wanting to know what it feels like. Perhaps it's crazy for me to want to touch you and feel you; to want to lie with you and listen to the way your heart murmurs softly to the tune of your body. I want to listen to your voice as you tell me what's on your mind in bits and pieces. I want to be close to you in ways others would only dream of, me included.

I feel like I don't know a lot of things when I'm around you. An invasion of thoughts and emotions fill my mind every single time my eyes meet yours, but that doesn't scare me. It only sucks me in deeper to the anomaly that is you.

You're lot different with others than you are with me. Out there, you're difficult to please and pretty much a giant pain in my ass. But alone, we are like a current and a river, able to coexist, flowing with each other naturally.

In some ways, I admire how you can act as two, though it never really fooled me. I always knew which one was mine.

I watch you closely as you tend to your garden; a part of you that seems to exist through any condition. You are so careful, so tender with the way you work, as of something else lay beneath the soil that I can't see. Something that perhaps I wouldn't understand. It's like it may fall apart in an instant if you don't take care of it in that exact way. But you don't seem to mind putting forth the effort.  I can feel how calm and at peace you are, in your garden, your safe zone, from all the way over here.

Suddenly, I long to make you feel that way on my own. Just once, would I like to be able to make you feel a way you've never felt before. Together, I feel as though that may be all we need.